Thought I'd share, Happy Father's Day

[deltl1ks]

Sunday, June 17th was Father’s Day. It is the first Father’s Day that I did not have a father to wish Happy Father’s Day to. I would love to have said those words once more to my dad. I would have loved to have said “I love you dad”. Dad would have looked at me and smiled a soft, warming, gentle smile, one of delight and content, as he would reply “Son you did not have to do that” “Ah shucks dad, it’s not much, take mom out and have dinner on me” I would happily exclaim, “pick up you something as well. This is your day dad, have fun and enjoy”.

On this day my mind was preoccupied a little because of work I had to do. With each hour of the day it dragged by oh so slow. I was dragging, working on this day. As I sit with my family this Father’s Day who met me for lunch, I realized this Father’s Day I don’t have dear ole dad. My three children gave me gifts they made. As tears filled my eyes I could not help to think what I would have given “my dad “on this special day. Would it have been money, a gift card, dinner, or something more?

My mind races with possibilities as my youngest loudly and repeatedly called out. “Daddy, Happy Father’s Day, Daddy, Happy Father’s Day, Daddy, Happy Father’s day”. My oldest two children would chime in as well. “Happy Father’s Day”. I snap back to reality and smiled, I gave them big hugs and kisses to each one of them and thanked them for remembering dear ole dad. I did not care they may have been a bit loud, perhaps others did, but right now it did not matter to me for my children were wishing me a great day. The time was filled with joy but even still I longed to say those words as well. I think of dad everyday but on this day I thought of him even more as I think I should.

I have no idea if our loved ones hear you or not in the ever after, but as I stood by dad’s resting place and quietly said: “I miss you dad, I love you dad, Happy Father’s day”. As the birds chirp in the background, as the sun sets against the recent storm clouds across the mountains I take comfort that perhaps dear ole dad is looking at me with a soft, warm, gentle smile saying that’s my boy. Happy Father’s Day son. I cannot see the expression on his face but I can remember his smile, the voice of years passed that will never fade away. Those memories will carry me through, no matter what. Today, Father’s Day, I believe my dad knew I was thinking of him and wishing him a great day.

[Beaza]

My dad moved-on in his plane crash when i was 16 Delt . I know how ya feel man.

Nicely written

[Toledo]

Well written Del', nicely put

I have that strain of thought on Mothers Day every year..................even after 20yrs

Del', it will ease with time.....................honestly.

[BikePilot]

Very well put Del, thanks for sharing

[Chris Cannon]

Your killing me man. Great words.

[Chris Cannon]

Hell, I would have loved to have been able to say those words just once in my life. My mom and pops split when i was real young and in an nasty divorce we moved half way across the country.

He is older and has more kids now. Some times I try to track him down but wonder what on earth would I say. Is it even worth it.

[missinlinc]

I'm with you Del. It never gets easier though.

[BikePilot]

Hell, I would have loved to have been able to say those words just once in my life. My mom and pops split when i was real young and in an nasty divorce we moved half way across the country.

He is older and has more kids now. Some times I try to track him down but wonder what on earth would I say. Is it even worth it.

Dude, you should do it now - you might not always have that option and it would suck to look back and wish you'd done something when ya had the chance. I dunno about you, but I'd much rather give something a shot and deal with whatever the results might be than to never try

[deltl1ks]

Thanks guys, I'm doing okay. I just get a bit semtimental once in a well and write stuff.

I'm not any good but it helps me to say it and write it down.

Chris I can't say I understand but why not. It's no different than meeting a total stranger and starting a conversation. I'm with Josh on this one, go for it. You may leave with a better understanding of the events that transpired. I think you owe it to yourself to at least try. Perhaps your dad feels the same way but is just as afraid of what your reaction would be.

He may be waiting for you to do just that.

I can't say I understand as my parents were married 51 years until dad passed. He stood beside mom and us through everything. I hope you try and I hope the reception is as warm as the effort put forth.

[Toledo]

Chris, I kind of side with the other guys? But I think you have to want to do it and not just because you feel you have to ?